Why is it, that we can tell ourselves one thing, but never adhere to it? It's unavoidable. Think about it… Ever had a time where you told yourself, on vacation or at the mall, that you were only going to spend a certain amount of money? And what do you do, you spend more. So that's not the greatest example, how about this…
I know there have been times when I've been mad at someone, I mean REALLY mad, and I swear to myself I'm going to let them know how I feel, give them a piece of my mind, not let it go. When I see the person again, do they lose their head? No, I forgive and forget like everything is grand and kick myself over it later
I never knew what I had, until I lost it. It sat here right in front of me, yet for some reason I was blind to see it. What did I do, where did I go wrong... to lose someone like you?
Every minute we're apart pulls at my heart, but every minute I'll share with you in the future will be even worse... knowing I can't be with you, even when so close. It's torment, that's what it is. But why?
You came into my life at a difficult time, a time in which I needed someone. You helped me through. But now... you too are gone. Why... what can I do? If only I had all the answers...
Each day I try a little more, to answer my own questions, to fi
Am I really what you're looking for?
…sometimes less, others more?
I never truly know where I stand…
…even here, holding your hand.
Some times I'm competing with an unknown face.
Is this a game? A challenge? A race?
You say everything is fine, there's nothing to fear…
…but your own worry and questioning is all that I hear.
Some mysteries lie hidden, locked beyond your door.
I try again to understand, but fail as before.
I keep trying my best, to ease my heart and head…
…but I keep winding up at a wall instead.
I don't know where to turn. I don't know what to try.
I'll probably be searching, until the day I die.
"Is it all wor
Only three words had been written,
But it changed my whole state of mind.
How precise she had placed them,
All plain and inline.
They had a whole new meaning.
I knew not what to think.
They lifted my spirits,
And put me on the brink.
To close friends I read the letter,
They couldn't believe what it said.
They said there was a reason,
That she's toying with my head.
I believed those three words,
And I took them to heart.
I felt the sincerity in them,
And knew life could now start.
I was free as a bird,
Who can touch the sky.
I was high on a feeling,
And felt I could fly.
Most people said it was bad,
A few thought it was go
I live to know you.
I live to love you.
I live to see your face.
I live to need you.
I live to be with you.
I live to feel your embrace.
I know you saved me.
I know you love me.
I know you'll always care.
I know you'll guide me.
I know you'll stand with me.
I know you'll always be there.
I shall not fear.
I shall not doubt.
I shall not feel regret.
I will never leave you.
I will never turn my back.
And most of all…
I will never forget.
I love you, Lord. Thank you.
Times at night I lie awake,
With thoughts in my head racing.
For no obvious reason,
I find my heart racing.
What could it be?
Some days my mind gets all twisted,
My emotions turn to a maze.
I walk around without direction,
As if I'm moving through a haze.
What could it be?
I tend to find myself smiling,
For no reason at all.
I feel lighter than air,
No fear of a fall.
What could it be?
Other times I feel nervous,
Unable to speak.
I let go into silence,
As my body grows weak.
What could it be?
When I sit back and think,
I feel confused and alone.
Trying to grasp my feelings,
Trying to get in a zone.
What could it be?
W
I'm hurt and I'm angry.
I'm all twisted inside.
I want to scream and cry,
Both at the same time.
I tried to be careful,
Watching my tracks.
But what you did hit me
Like a knife in the back.
Now I sit down to bleed,
And to let it all flow.
Why couldn't I see?
Why didn't I know?
It was all false wishes,
False dreams, false hope.
Now all I need is an end,
...or a rope.
I sit down and wonder, has it all been worth it?
…all the time…
…wondering…
…worrying…
I put things off for so long, hoping for a sign… some truth behind what I thought I was seeing before me.
That sign never came.
Decisions were finally made, both on my own and through others. I took a chance, took a risk, took a step towards a hope. I needed a change.
I desired to be free of indecision, free of confusion, free of wondering what would be. I made the leap off the ledge in hopes of ending those feelings… of answering my own questions, validating my eyes, my mind, my heart.
So was it all worth it? I'm still left unsure, left without
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In ancient Greece, Socrates was reputed to hold knowledge in high esteem. One day an acquaintance met the great philosopher and said, "Do you know what I just heard about your friend?"
"Hold on a minute," Socrates replied. "Before telling me anything I'd like you to pass a little test. It's called the Triple Filter Test."
"Triple filter?"
"That's right," Socrates continued. "Before you talk to me about my friend, it might be a good idea to take a moment and filter what you're going to say. That's why I call it the triple filter test.
The first filter is Truth. Have you made absolutely sure that what you are about to tell me is true?
Finally got my 75-300mm and 58mm polarizer lenses for my camera! =D Now hopefully I can get away from work at some point and put them to use. Been a while since I've had time to shoot some pictures.